Why not now

 I am really tired of so-called thinkers who have never even been to school. Dimaag kharab kar dete hai yeh log. I have been suggesting to them that nothing will happen to them if they let go of my children now but they just won't know. Know now, because, Child sex abuse laws will be brought into the country by all parties and it is they who will look after those who have been abusing Minors by letting the Mother get abused. The election is upon us and the leaders are debating whether equality is a basic human right or not - there are men and women who really interfered with my life when I had to stay in hotels and who just won't know that it is wrong to think with guests and take their peace of mind away from them. It is a big offence that people like them are committing by interfering with the lives of others. International law will come into the country and then they will know that it is not good to gossip about those who are being abused.  Our children have been taken away...

 He left me all alone or was it I who made him alone. Who will know, who can tell but the conscience. It is not a nice feeling to be alone in this cold and dreary place. The children have gone they have a life but I don't.  What is the reason for my being if not for all those who have lost their families to grief and desolation.

 I start afresh. I don't know what to write. I think not but I still know. What is it that I know. It is only I who knows this as they who think that they can know me only know me on this blog or social media. They know not that I know myself more and that I will not know those who think that they can know me more than I can.

When the world stops wanting to know that it is going round and round then people will really begin to stop wondering what is happening around them. This is so as then people will really cease to run ahead of themselves and consider taking a good look at their own characters and stop judging others as well as themselves, especially those of us who are not interested in knowing the Universe but just what is going on right under our own feet or noses.  What should I know here. I have to get my financial independence back from the local government which doesn't acknowledge that I am a wealthy woman whose money has been taken away by the machinations of her ex-husband and his associates. And that this happens to lots of women who live in the country and the world too. This I know as there are victims of domestic violence all over the world now and by some estimates one woman dies every week in Australia alone.  My ex-husband's whole family is here and lives in this city. However, ...

 Let me hope that this year will bring with it countless joys for all of us.  It is not nice to live in constant worry or pain.  It is not nice at all when your children see you angry and anxious and in pain. So lets hope that this year brings with it a light filled Winter with a lot less of rain.

It is now 2023. The leaves are still as are the branches of the trees above. The frost has given them an eerie sense of stillness. The sun has risen up though and would soon be thawing at their hearts and life will then be able to flow through them again. I look at them and wonder what the point of life really is, especially if all of us need a sun, which is hidden from view, however which can still come into our lives and give it nourishment. How to find that sun, the one which one could orbit around and get sustenance from; an impossible dream sometimes. The sound of him coughing ripped through the quiet night. It came once, was followed by another, its echo and then all went silent. I stirred once, opened my eyes and then as if in a trance, shut them again. It had been nothing, all was quiet. I lay listening to the sounds of the night though; the clock in the other room continued its periodic ramblings, tick-tock; a broken toy whirred in the dark somewhere before going silent again....

What to write or say, There is something which I need to say. They come and they go They still need a mother and so does their brother. He does not come over that much,  But he does still. They know, but do they care, no, they don’t; This is a really sad tradition Taking children away from mothers And letting ex husbands do so with the assistance of their friends and brothers. It is illegal to do so, I hear the parliament say, But do they turn around and help when you ask them to or do they say, No. Let them know that it is wrong but do they say it when you ask them to say so, No. What should I write today, the day is a bit cloudy It is going to rain again And cloud our judgements still.