Anxiety and Anger vs Calm

When the world stops wanting to know that it is going round and round then people will really begin to stop wondering what is happening around them. This is so as then people will really cease to run ahead of themselves and consider taking a good look at their own characters and stop judging others as well as themselves, especially those of us who are not interested in knowing the Universe but just what is going on right under our own feet or noses. 

What should I know here. I have to get my financial independence back from the local government which doesn't acknowledge that I am a wealthy woman whose money has been taken away by the machinations of her ex-husband and his associates. And that this happens to lots of women who live in the country and the world too. This I know as there are victims of domestic violence all over the world now and by some estimates one woman dies every week in Australia alone. 

My ex-husband's whole family is here and lives in this city. However, they will not acknowledge me as someone whose children have been taken away by the local govt. Then, seeing as something bad has happened as my eldest is often unwell then whose fault will it be but theirs. 

However, it is too slow, some people do know that I am not a poor woman just a disadvantaged one who is not worth knowing anymore as she cannot connect with society that much and is alone, too alone. I, too, have been so busy wallowing in misery that I forgot that I am a really blessed woman and have a lot going for me. I was so busy trying to prove to others that I was a lucky woman who was being bullied that I forgot to live for myself and for my family back in the Northern hemisphere. The govt took my money (alimony) away from me and gave it to my ex-husband who only lets my children support me when he wants them to support me without their realising that he does this. His thoughts have become theirs and they say that I need to let go but how do you and why should you let go of your children. And they are older now and I have come across some good luck although after a lot of hardship - self imposed? no just anxious and angry and so I have to be careful now. Because, they have both gone, my parents, those two who used to look after me. But my father's passing away has made me even more committed to not getting angry or anxious anymore.  Will it work? Will I be able to stay calm? Will the future open its heart out to me? Will my children come back is not even debatable but it is real too that some Mothers lose their children for life to Anxiety and Anger. So Calm is the only way to be as I don't want to lose my three children to these two emotions.

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