Why not now

I used to be a social researcher as well as a philanthropist who has been turned into a refugee of sorts by some business men and their partners who have forced me to become a dependent of the State.   They have taken my identity away from me by taking my art practice away from me, which is about the links between Mental Illness and Domestic Violence. In 2019, I approached the Vice Chancellor of the ANU, who used to be a Physicist, with my project. However, instead of the yes that I was hoping for, I received a letter in my inbox from the legal department of the ANU saying that were I to contact anyone about my project they would start a legal case against me. I got scared and went silent. I wish instead that I had been braver and told others about my project but COVID also struck after a while and I got busy with my children who had also been taken away from me by my ex-husband and his family, something that they can't do in India anymore but they did use their contacts here to ma...

I don't know how to know so they tell me, However, I can know when they know coz they are my children I can also know when he knows coz he is my ex-husband I can also know when they know coz they were my inlaws for almost 20 years Can you help me please then As my three are really tired and say, please, when will we be together to me all the time This they do by meeting me as often as they can and talking to me when they can The MHC does know too and asks me to go to DVCS and Relationships Australia with them Which I can't as their father won't let them. Can you help me please, I will be grateful, The NGA knows of me but won't know there for me as Mental Illness is Sacrosanct The ANU knows too but it is the same over there too as there are finances involved What should I do now and so I ask you  As I hope that you will be able to open the case which was closed in 2017 By the Member for Canberra as we sit alone over here and hope once more that that which was closed w...

I am a mother of three  And I live in Canberra but I am not free I have lost four teeth asking for my Rights and lost my seventh tooth a year or two ago I have Dementia now like a number of Musicians have in this city,  So I ask you whether you can please bring my sons back to me, I will be grateful  And I will explain to you why in a little while; I ask you for help as all of my children and I are Autistic and low on Fe and Vit D but High Achievers And also as I don't know why but no one in the ACT replies to my emails now Even Leanne, who argued for my Rights and questioned Michael, the Minister for Multicultural Affairs last year why my three sons were not with me Even she has stopped writing to me Can you please find out why this is happening coz Andrew is my ex-husband's friend's friend and he has suggested that he can't for me probably as there is not enough money with me over here in Australia as mine is all overseas; I will be eternally yo...

What to write  a common refrain what to say know not but it says something something that I must know you by something that one knows but knows not that one can know and say no to the rest of the world. say yes or no, but that would be cruel now how to say yes though when the nays have been stronger for ages now it ends at a note that is sad but it could not also end and that will be nice, nicer than the thought that says that it is wrong to know not but know not why it is wrong to know when it is wrong to know not.

I am scared and I don't know why.  These women, they really stalk and they still think that I am their friend.  I am scared but not because of them. They twist and they turn and they fly and they squirm and they scream non stop I think and I know but not because of them. And it goes now the thought that was with me but just a little while ago And I think not that they will not not come back but that it is a given that they will now. They are many and we only four Some think that I should not not know  And most agree with the thought  And so I still lose my patience every now and then  And then those who can know from a distance  Get upset and take their protection away from me, ie us Don't. I get upset but it is not because of you but it is because of what is happening to me and to all four of us right now in this mind space  I think not and I would like to  To just know that silence again With them there beside me as we used to sit around th...

It happens when one thinks too much, words escape one's memory and no one knows what to do on the computer. Another day of what one should write here, especially as they are allowed to be witches and fly around on broomsticks while I have been told that I can't even know my own children's grief and suffering as they are with a man who is so generous that he could put Bill Gates to shame.  But is he that good? So good, so sacrosanct his relationship with the State that no one can put an iota of blame on him. Or is he? He is not, he says and I repeat, at the risk of sounding mad as I just mumble to myself all the time now, just don't even talk to anyone anymore, just no one to listen to me, no one to go and say hello to, no one to shake hands with either sometimes, as if its the shaking of hands that brings people close together! But no one to know really... And the sun just came out and shone down upon me. Gosh this is a sign, something good could be happening soon, or c...

I was born in 1972 however, I could not know another's thoughts until 2015 And this was in Canberra, which I was brought to in 1996. Had I been in India I would have known another a long time ago But I was really Depressed over here as I was not in love with the man who I was married to  So I started to live away from him even though we had three children from the marriage. This is called Depression and the release of Depressing thoughts is called Psychosis, or is it Depressed thoughts and Repressed Emotions - this was in 2009 for me but it was not diagnosed! until 2015, And it is called a Mental Illness to know that all living beings think and know like they say in the Gita I don't know the bible but I have heard that It says it too. I used to write with an Italian Diplomat who is now in Victoria and it was sad but real as they all got together to kill me but now I am being tagged by strangers who evicted me from some hotels and were rude to my children and I. However, it is j...