Why not now

What to write  a common refrain what to say know not but it says something something that I must know you by something that one knows but knows not that one can know and say no to the rest of the world. say yes or no, but that would be cruel now how to say yes though when the nays have been stronger for ages now it ends at a note that is sad but it could not also end and that will be nice, nicer than the thought that says that it is wrong to know not but know not why it is wrong to know when it is wrong to know not.

I am scared and I don't know why.  These women, they really stalk and they still think that I am their friend.  I am scared but not because of them. They twist and they turn and they fly and they squirm and they scream non stop I think and I know but not because of them. And it goes now the thought that was with me but just a little while ago And I think not that they will not not come back but that it is a given that they will now. They are many and we only four Some think that I should not not know  And most agree with the thought  And so I still lose my patience every now and then  And then those who can know from a distance  Get upset and take their protection away from me, ie us Don't. I get upset but it is not because of you but it is because of what is happening to me and to all four of us right now in this mind space  I think not and I would like to  To just know that silence again With them there beside me as we used to sit around th...

It happens when one thinks too much, words escape one's memory and no one knows what to do on the computer. Another day of what one should write here, especially as they are allowed to be witches and fly around on broomsticks while I have been told that I can't even know my own children's grief and suffering as they are with a man who is so generous that he could put Bill Gates to shame.  But is he that good? So good, so sacrosanct his relationship with the State that no one can put an iota of blame on him. Or is he? He is not, he says and I repeat, at the risk of sounding mad as I just mumble to myself all the time now, just don't even talk to anyone anymore, just no one to listen to me, no one to go and say hello to, no one to shake hands with either sometimes, as if its the shaking of hands that brings people close together! But no one to know really... And the sun just came out and shone down upon me. Gosh this is a sign, something good could be happening soon, or c...

I was born in 1972 however, I could not know another's thoughts until 2015 And this was in Canberra, which I was brought to in 1996. Had I been in India I would have known another a long time ago But I was really Depressed over here as I was not in love with the man who I was married to  So I started to live away from him even though we had three children from the marriage. This is called Depression and the release of Depressing thoughts is called Psychosis, or is it Depressed thoughts and Repressed Emotions - this was in 2009 for me but it was not diagnosed! until 2015, And it is called a Mental Illness to know that all living beings think and know like they say in the Gita I don't know the bible but I have heard that It says it too. I used to write with an Italian Diplomat who is now in Victoria and it was sad but real as they all got together to kill me but now I am being tagged by strangers who evicted me from some hotels and were rude to my children and I. However, it is j...

I could write something today but I know not what maybe just a lullaby or maybe a poem that I could read to them later  when they are with me. come now, my sons, coz it is time to and you are older too: come back to me now I wait for you three to know that it is fine to know when no one knows anything but the one who brought you into this world all alone at times and without a father who could be there for you when I was alone...so know that it is fine to know your Mother coz this is how the world works - know your Mother and you will know the whole wide world too.

 I am really tired of so-called thinkers who have never even been to school. Dimaag kharab kar dete hai yeh log. I have been suggesting to them that nothing will happen to them if they let go of my children now but they just won't know. Know now, because, Child sex abuse laws will be brought into the country by all parties and it is they who will look after those who have been abusing Minors by letting the Mother get abused. The election is upon us and the leaders are debating whether equality is a basic human right or not - there are men and women who really interfered with my life when I had to stay in hotels and who just won't know that it is wrong to think with guests and take their peace of mind away from them. It is a big offence that people like them are committing by interfering with the lives of others. International law will come into the country and then they will know that it is not good to gossip about those who are being abused.  Our children have been taken away...

 He left me all alone or was it I who made him alone. Who will know, who can tell but the conscience. It is not a nice feeling to be alone in this cold and dreary place. The children have gone they have a life but I don't.  What is the reason for my being if not for all those who have lost their families to grief and desolation.